Happy Testimony Tuesday, Y'all! Today we have an exciting testimony provided by our own Amy Jo! I feel truly blessed to listen to her speak and open up about who she was before Christ and who she is now. What a beautiful reflection of God's redeeming love.
Amy called herself a "child seductress." For most of us, we can not fathom what that really means, but it is horrifying nonetheless. Coming from Generational trauma, that is the only thing she knew as a small child. She mentioned being 'spiritually marked' when you come from trauma and that reminded me of the book "Scarlet Letter". The spirits can see her pain and trauma and torment her as she wears the big red "A" on her chest.
As an adult, she felt she 'trafficked' herself as that was the way of life she knew. She thought that being in control of the trafficking herself, it would release her from some kind of bondage, but it only brought her into more pain. For many years she was inside an evil marriage in an evil family and they knew every programming trigger to use against her.
Until one day she was blessed with a child. She said once she was with child, she no longer lived for herself, she cleaned up so she could live for her son. I relate to this as I was the same way. I was full of pain and self-destructed in a lot of ways. Once I got pregnant I stopped eating high-mercury fish and even took a car seat training class! My life was no longer my own. I believe children are truly a gift from God because look how fast we change so that our children can live! (Psalm 127:3)
Amy was still weak and afraid but she knew she was stronger than that and overcame the fear. Instead of living in the pain, she turned that energy into helping others. (One quick note: DONATE SOCKS TO LOCAL SHELTERS!!! The homeless that are riddled with trauma living on the streets, always need socks!) She thought she was justified by turning her anger against her 'monsters' but realized vengeance is the Lord's. (Deuteronomy 32:35)
Like me, she started looking for answers and found herself interested in conspiracies. She was sent a link about Jessie Czebotar, and suddenly pieces of her puzzle came together. She could feel her own portrait being painted by Jessie's words. After years of just feeling "Crazy" and not knowing why... God took her on her own personal journey filled with discovery.
While reflecting upon her life, she found that God was always there, he never left her. And while he was there, he took the worst of it first so that she could walk through the fire with him. Amy Jo grew in her walk with Jesus and the Holy Spirit and instead of being angry with others, she learned to no longer hate. God healed her so deeply, that he taught her how to love again. She was filled with so much love, grace, and compassion for others, that she began to change. (Philippians 4:7)
Amy Jo didn't need a deliverance ministry as God walked with her and taught her the prayers she needed to work on breaking her bonds. She is comforted by the solitude of life and likes to walk with the Lord daily. Jesus can handle ALL OF IT! And when he brings something to you, it's never in condemnation but rather for your own self-reflection. We have all been rescued in different ways and love is the answer. Jesus is love, true love, not Hollywood love.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
I love you all my friends, and I hope that by understanding each other through our testimonies we can then understand who God is more clearly. He loves us so much. So much I am tearing up writing this. YOU MATTER! I MATTER! And God loves us every moment of every day! Blessings over you!
