Hello Friends! Welcome to Testimony Tuesday! Our favorite day of the week (except for Sunday😉)! This week's episode is titled "resting in dark places," as I wanted to highlight our struggles and why they are so great! I felt your side eye...but trust me! In our darkness, God is able to shine his light the most!

I would assume most of you would describe me as optimistic, cheerful, full of hope, and faith. I can assure you that this is not always the case. In case you haven't read in my posts, I have some pretty dark humor, which typically happens after trauma as a coping mechanism. Also, you have read some pretty self-deprecating articles, so no, I am not always the happy little creation God intended me to be.

While doing my coaching on my strengths, POSITIVITY was number 28/34, which is a pretty low/ dormant trait on the list. My coach made a statement, "God allowed you to rest in dark places, and you can not be positive all the time, as you were able to navigate some really hard stuff." That makes sense when you think about the people who REFUSE to wake up. Most of us on here want to stare death in the eyes so that we can confront it, and defeat it with God's love.

I have often stated, "I have the gift of pain," and I guess this was always true for me. In my life, I typically experience a deep hardship or loss, and someone close to me will find themselves on the same path later down the road. In being first to walk through the darkness, I am able to provide them a flashlight of God's wisdom and love so they don't have to navigate their situation alone. What a blessing that is to me, that God equipped me to rest in darkness so that I can offer his light to others when they pass by.  (Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.) Psalm 91:1.

I hope that by sharing my voice and my experiences, I can bring hope to the hopeless and strength to those who need it! I've really come to learn we are all in this together, no one makes it out alive, and if we can help our brothers or sisters out while we still have time left on Earth, why don't we?! Be the smile that no one offered you, be the example a child needed to see, be who you were created to be! I love you so much!

Short and sweet this week, but I wanted to share the rambles of my mind so we had something to glorify God with! All the glory to God, every breath that he allows me to take is a gift. And to think what I would have missed out on in my life if I had listened to the devil and ended it all a long time ago! Life is beautiful if you cut out the noise! Be blessed this week!!! 

 

Hello, My Friends!! Welcome to this week's episode of Testimony Tuesday, and boy, do I have a LOT to share. Some of you have noticed my writing absence, and I appreciate you all looking forward to these articles and checking up on me :D 

Recently, I completed a 5-week coaching course on identifying your strengths and skills. Once these are identified, the coaching helps you become the best version of yourself that God meant for you to be. This class has CHANGED MY LIFE! Here are my top five traits: 1. Relator: "Friendly, Loyal, Genuine" 2. Belief: "Certain, Passionate, Committed" 3. Consistency: "Fair, Passionate, Committed" 4. Context: Historical, Insightful, Reflective" 5. Connectedness "Philosophic, Purposeful, Interconnected."

I would guess a lot of you will confirm that these traits define me. The devil has kept a lot of this hidden from me, as I have always thought myself less-than. Also, a side note: a year ago, I was offered deliverance; maybe this was my "easy way out" option. This year, the same person who offered to provide deliverance ministry to me happened to be MY COACH during these sessions! You WILL do what God wants you to do one way or the other. God told me, "You didn't want to pray and be rid of these demons, so now I am going to fix how you think about things!" 

The coach helped me write down everything the world has spoken about me, and then asked God who I really am. God spoke to me, "You are a champion of people and a comforter." Yes, Lord! I do go to bat for people who are important to me, and for the children who are voiceless victims of systematic abuse. The coach told me, "As God has created you to be a comforter, the devil works in the opposite and encourages you to comfort yourself." THIS WAS THE KEY TO UNLOCKING MY SOBRIETY! From that moment on, I have decided not to self-soothe with the bottle. Instead, I am working on a Read the Bible in a Year plan, and I am thoughtfully reading the Bible to learn more about who God is, while I am truly learning who I was created to be.

Once, I wrote that I was a 'functional suicidal', that I had the 'gift of pain', and that I go through storms so that others may avoid them. While some of this may be true, the coaching helped me see through the lies the devil has always told me, and the reason God built me this way. Oh! What a treat it is to be seen and loved by God! 

Reading the Bible has been so much fun. I just finished Exodus, and whew, that was a long, detailed book of the Bible. Some Ally highlights- "Why is God such a perfectionist? The measurements of the tabernacle are long and so precise." (Exodus 38:21) The same week I asked this question, God showed me some information on the building of the tabernacle and the Priest's Breastplate. God always speaks to me in synchronicities! 

Another fun question, "Why is the smell of burning animal organs a pleasing aroma to you? (Exodus 29:25)  And God replied, "You like the smell of BBQ..." Touché, my Lord, Touché.

Learning who I am and how others think has been so helpful in many relationships. I CAN FINALLY UNDERSTAND MY MOTHER! The coaching has helped me take a pause and think about the person's response to what I am thinking/ communicating. The coaching has helped me speak these words, "I like who I am" or "I like myself," and that has NEVER happened in my life. I was always just here for the experiment with a longing to return home to our Lord.

I can now proudly say I am 30 days sober from alcohol. I am working on the cigarettes and junk food, but one thing at a time. I have given myself some grace so I can maintain my sober living from alcohol. I seem to be less reactive and angry and more patient and content. Oh! And I also got a raise last week, so it appears that God is rewarding me for all my hard work!  

I titled this article "Born-again Christian" as that is truly what is happening in my life. In my sin, I was dead. I was a zombie walking around, just going through the motions. I have always been a Christian, but not a strong warrior for Christ. I have always focused on outreach and creating harmony between people, but have never stopped to create the harmony inside myself. This past month, I have really come alive! The dust covering my heart has been swept away by God's grace and Love! I truly have been born again! 

God is so good, so patient, so loving. He never stopped fighting for me when I couldn't fight for myself. I am on fire for the Lord, He is my best friend, and I want to share that relationship with everyone. God wants our companionship, and he knows our stupidity before we even do! Trust the process, it is hard and scary, and it's easier living a dead life than a life rooted in Christ, but it is so worth it! Today, I commit to taking up my cross and following Jesus. Will you join me in doing the same?

Be blessed this week, my friends! Be transformed knowing that God created you especially for a time as this, and you have all the tools you need to overcome the enemy. Remember, (1 John 4:4): "You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." If God is for us, who can be against us? (Romans 8:31). Please know that if you need a friend to chat with, if you need some uplifting in Jesus' name, I'm your girl! I hope you all become exactly who God meant you to be! Have a blessed week in Jesus' name! Amen <3

 

 

Happy Testimony Tuesday, Yall! Today, we dig into the topic of Redemption. Who among us is worthy of redemption? Are there some souls that are NOT? We hear in the Bible how some children are sons and daughters of the enemy. "John 8:44 "For you are the children of your father the devil, and you love to do the evil things he does. He was a murderer from the beginning. He has always hated the truth because there is no truth in him. When he lies, it is consistent with his character; for he is a liar and the father of lies." If we think in Calvinistic terms, if God elects his children for redemption, are these children of the Devil even redeemable? 

I've seen some interesting clips this week from Nathan Reynolds. Nathan is a former "bloodline child." His family believes they can trace their ancestry back to Gilgamesh, and they are children of the "little gods." They have a separate philosophy from "Humans," and children often have special mutations that help them achieve enlightenment or tap into gnostic superpowers. He describes what we refer to as MK Ultra, where a young child's soul is shattered and reconstructed to take on the assignment from the "Family" 

Nathan denies being part of the Illuminati but thinks of it more as a hierarchy, "Family." His parental background comes from master masons and the Jesuit Catholic order. Nathan can describe the exploitation of children and how certain orders, such as the Knights of Columbus, were created to hide child abuse. He can describe being taken to these places to be tortured and abused to break his will. They know that once they break you down, they own you, and convince you that you will never be able to break free of this system. So mostly, you operate under compliance. 

What happened to Nathan, was that he read a book; "The Gospel to every Creature." The book Synopsis states: "Preach the gospel to every creature."? What did Jesus mean ? Genetic manipulation is happening right now. It seems that science can mix different species of animals, including humans, and engineer whatever outcome is desired. Human genes are being mixed with the genes of animals, plants, and for those who can accept it, with the genes of fallen angels.The question this book addresses is an important one for this generation: Did Jesus die for those who are not fully human? The Bible does not give a direct answer. John Darnell looks at the arguments, for and against, testing each against scripture. He particularly focuses on the issues surrounding those who are the outcome of fallen angel/human experiments: Nephilim."  This book helped him understand that ALL creatures, Nephalim, Vampires, and transhumans, were worthy and capable of redemption. 

For me, this kind of goes hand-in-hand with the death sentence. I understand that some who have lost a loved one to violence think the same should be done to the offender. But what right do we have on Earth to take away the offender's chance of redemption through Christ Jesus? Jesus came to die for ALL us sinners, even the least of thee. 

A friend of the blog sent me this full interview, and it has so much information!

I'm sure it's a much better interview than whatever "Emma" has put out. Anyhow, please listen with open ears and sift through what you know to be truth and ask God to help you understand the things that seem too big to be real!

Also, you can find out more about Nathan and his new life exposing the "Family"'s evil ways at his website https://snatchedfromtheflames.com/. Like God did for Jessie Czebotar, God "snatched" him from the evil ones and has instead turned his bad into good.

Friends, let's continue to pray for each other as we continue to navigate through good and evil while on earth. Let's be bold and courageous and speak truth and light into everyone we come across. One word of truth spoken from you, could be a matter of life or death to someone you encounter. "Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit."

Be blessed this week and remember, I love you all!